Closed off;


Hi all,

sorry for the lack of updates recently as promised..



I was so tied up and caught up with everything that has been happening in my life right now.

A lot of things are finally finalised now and I kinda finally have my life back.

Funny how sometimes we tell ourselves, a year down the road this and this is going to happen, so and so is going to do this/that, etc etc.

Funny how just in a matter of 365 days things can be so different.


The options you think you have.
The choices you make.
The life you want.

Sometimes you start to ponder and be thankful for the little things that happened, but then another wave will hit you while you're immersed in your thoughts that hey, if you should be thankful then why did so much bad happen?

Should you still be thankful?


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These few days I started to have thoughts like, "Am I given this chance to start anew again?"

I feel younger than before.
I feel like I'm no longer afraid to make mistakes because I think I've been through the worst already - or at least that's what I think.

If not for Cookie I would have travelled to various countries to live and work, to experience a life I didn't get to so many years back.

For now, I am just trying to get by.
Trying to settle down, finally.

And hopefully have the chance to finally work harder for the things I've always wanted.

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"We feel like everything was ripped out from under us, and we don’t have a handle on the situation. 
All we want is to find some sort of peace, some sort of feeling of reassurance…we want to know that everything is going to be okay. 
And without closure, it’s hard to feel like everything is going to be okay.

We so badly want to analyze the situation, breaking it down into logic and facts. 
We want to put our finger on the broken part, and then determine how to fix it, or at least, how to move on.  
But often times there’s no rhyme or reason. 
 There’s no proof or logic that will solve this riddle, no matter how badly we want it. 
The truth is, sometimes you won’t get the chance to say goodbye in the way you would wish for.

You’ll have to remind yourself that you will feel warm again one day. 
One day you will be okay."

I hope so.

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I have recently been pretty closed off because I was trying to get everything back together while juggling with work and time.

I finally found a place to move permanently and can't wait to show you guys my new place and of course, Cookie finally can stay with me without the hassle of moving around/along with me.



This silly boy just deserves so much good.

 ❤️️❤️️❤️️

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Anyways, thanks to Elyn for this very chio pink hair...




Too bad the colour didn't last so long on me due to my hair condition...
But hey if you are keen this shade is more of like cherry pink - a colour to consider to do 😍

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 Super in love with this jacket please 😍😍😍

Can't help but feel it suits the recent holiday series from....

FENTY BEAUTY! ❤️️



Why you so chio?!?!

New youtube video on these babies will be up on my channel tonight, it's a deal! 👌

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"I lost my way all the way to you and in you I found all the way back to me;"

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Thanks all for reading and staying with me.

Drop by my gigs if you are free and we can chill & hang 😚

My current gig days/locations for October 2017 :

Wednesday - Beer Xchange 2245 - 0230
Thursday - OSG @ Suntec 2100 - 0000
Friday - Beer Xchange 1930 - 2200
Saturday - 2mm Talenthub 1945 - 0015

See you when I see you! 😍

With love,



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